After writing last week’s Monday Morning Coach about the importance of
taking the time to relax and enjoy summer’s gifts, I received an email
from one of my readers. At the end of it, he kidded me about remembering
to follow my own sage advice. I was able to respond with pride and assure
him that I was absolutely following my own advice about honoring the need
to slow down. What I didn’t share, was that in some ways, I had been
forced to.
You
know I’ve never kept it a secret that what I write about for Monday
Morning Coach is usually what I am personally wrestling with at the
present moment.
I
have also shared that after my auto accident and brain injury that,
although the intensity at which I suffered when I didn’t honor my need for
balance or rest was far greater than for most, I quickly realized that the
challenges I faced mirrored what I saw others facing as well. It has
always been my deepest wish that as I reorganized my life around what
mattered most, that I’d be able to help others do the same (and that
hopefully they wouldn’t need to manifest a debilitating illness or a bonk
on the head to encourage them to do so).
At
the beginning of June, after going several months at full speed, I hit a
snag and started to experience some serious head injury relapses. Luckily,
I have been able to clear my plate of responsibilities and make some room
for rest. It’s been a time for me to focus on the positive possibilities
and not the negative. Like I always say; the bigger the jolt, the bigger
the gift. With this new snag, I have been blessed with the gift of
humility (I truly mean that) and the opportunity to clear the deck and
start anew.
I’ve
let go of just about anything and everything that drains me, have taken
time to lounge around and do a lot of nothing, and done my best to bask in
appreciation of my ability and freedom to do so.
Is
it all perfect and wonderful? Heck no! Am I being challenged to stay true
to my need for rest, peace, and quiet? You betcha! Am I gracefully gliding
through the process? I wish!
But,
I am doing my best to do what I teach others to do: pray, breath deeply,
and trust. Trust that everything is indeed unfolding perfectly. Trust that
there are gifts in even the most difficult of circumstances; and most
importantly, trust that even with a brain that is challenged at the
moment, that I am enough just as I am.
My
brain may not be working up to par at the present time, but I can joyfully
say that my heart is. And, as I allow my heart to be fully open, I realize
that regardless of where this path leads me, my life is eternally blessed
for living with an open and full heart. And for that, I am grateful.
Have
a week filled with gifts,
Emma
and Mommy Talk to God (Paperback) 
